My update
Okay, new goal is to update my blog more often.
I've been fighting off a bout of depression lately, which has sadly been an uphill battle. I think after a tough gym session I'm over it, but we'll have to wait and see.
It's difficult, you know? Being alone, and on my own for the first time in my life. Balancing work, school, and using what few shreds of time remain to watch out for health and girls. Doesn't bode well for my own mental health.
But when I'm at the gym, it's MY time. It's my chance to get stronger, feel better, and push myself further than I think I can go. Cliche? Maybe. I'm okay with it though.
It's funny, but I'm rapidly reaching an impass in my progression. Jake pointed it out to me the other night on a walk around UVSC campus. There will come a point, when we can't make it any further without someone to help us along the way.
That's rather why it's so hard for us to find girls. We aren't looking for someone to snuggle and cuddle with for a few months, then cast aside. We're looking for companions, people we can talk to, learn from, teach, and grow with. People with goals, dreams, ambitions, personality, and most of all, care enough about themselves that I don't have to love them for two people.
I've been trying to meet new people, but after the girl who "Just wanted to go on a date.", I've been a bit overly cautious.
Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but there hasn't been anything too pleasant to write about. I've found new people to protect. I've found people I want to care about me, but who don't, and vice-versa.
One day, I'll post on this blog about someone, I know I will. I look forward to that day.
I've been fighting off a bout of depression lately, which has sadly been an uphill battle. I think after a tough gym session I'm over it, but we'll have to wait and see.
It's difficult, you know? Being alone, and on my own for the first time in my life. Balancing work, school, and using what few shreds of time remain to watch out for health and girls. Doesn't bode well for my own mental health.
But when I'm at the gym, it's MY time. It's my chance to get stronger, feel better, and push myself further than I think I can go. Cliche? Maybe. I'm okay with it though.
It's funny, but I'm rapidly reaching an impass in my progression. Jake pointed it out to me the other night on a walk around UVSC campus. There will come a point, when we can't make it any further without someone to help us along the way.
That's rather why it's so hard for us to find girls. We aren't looking for someone to snuggle and cuddle with for a few months, then cast aside. We're looking for companions, people we can talk to, learn from, teach, and grow with. People with goals, dreams, ambitions, personality, and most of all, care enough about themselves that I don't have to love them for two people.
I've been trying to meet new people, but after the girl who "Just wanted to go on a date.", I've been a bit overly cautious.
Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but there hasn't been anything too pleasant to write about. I've found new people to protect. I've found people I want to care about me, but who don't, and vice-versa.
One day, I'll post on this blog about someone, I know I will. I look forward to that day.
posted by Matt at 1:22 AM
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